unang-una sa lahat......

this is my first entry... i decided to create this account so i would have an outlet for my thoughts and feelings... it's late at night, and suddenly i feel sad... i am missing the person that is most important to me.i haven't heard from him for almost a month and a half now. seems that we somehow lost touch. i know i may sound shallow if i say that i want him to prioritize me. it's just sometimes i wish he would find time for me. i know that he's busy with his studies, but i just don't buy that reason. how come all of my friends could be busy as hell with their studies and still find time to spend with their peers? why can't he manage to do that? sometimes i ask myself, am i expecting too much??? am i so selfish that am asking too much from him? all i want is to spend some time with him once in a while... well i guess that is too much to ask for... who am i to ask for such things like that? i am just a friend who doesn't know where to belong. besides that, i don't know our status. we're friends of a different level but still somewhere denial and ambivalence. we act like something we're not. we've been apart for about two months now, and i am trying to spend each day without thinking of him. i have somehow conditioned myself to the fact that we have to be away from each other. while i go to school each day and spend time with my new friends...... there is this person that i met and became one of my friends. i am glad that i got to know him and still continuously getting to know him as days passes by... to be continued.....