about a guy named james, being fat, and you know who...

andito na naman ako. back here to write my thoughts today. my day was kinda long. pagod n nga ako from school tpos binadtrip pko ng kuya ko! grrr talga un! grabe talga c james.(ung guy n ktxt ko s sun ko) girlfriend daw nya ako! duh?!? okie lang sya???? keeps on trying to be sweet when he texts me. saying take care, and cheesy stuff like that! i mean yah, its kinda nice to have a concerned so-called "friend". but he's gotta know where to draw the line. i haven't even met the guy. he says he's from ateneo and that he's a varsity there. oh whatever. sana ung guy nlng n gusto ko ung sweet and mushy sa akin! kilig pako nun!=D grabe! sobrang taba ko na!!!! i miss the way i look back when i was in 4th yr. highschool. i was a bit "less fat" then than the way i look right now. VAIN!!!! whahaha!!!=D oh well, it's bad din naman kc if ur too fat noh. grabe.. kaninang lab time namin, kausap ko c patty bout love stuffs. sabi ko sa knya ang sad n nga situation ko mas lalo pko nasasad dahil sa mga naiisip ko bout it. kasi di ko n nga lam kung in what way ako love ni ano noon, tapos ngaun feeling ko di n nya talaga ako love. he used to tell me that he luvs me, pro ngaun hanggang ingats nlng cnsbi nya. pero napag-isip isip ko rin na tama ung cnbi ni patty sakin.. sbi nya maybe he's just not ready to say it or di nya lng tlga alam ung sasabihin sakin. bka daw nag-iisip pa c ano at hindi pa nakakapag-decide kung ano nga ba tlaga. sbi din ni patty n i should give him time to think. maybe i could wait daw kahit until christmas and see what happens. sana nga may makuha akong kahit konting answers from him by christmas. there's a posibility n magkita kami sa nov. 20. that's a saturday. birthday celebration kasi ng mutual friend namin. i don't know if i wanna go there. ang weird ko noh?!? i've been saying it a lot of times that i wanna spend time with him pero ngayon pag naiisip ko n mgkikita kami parang kinakabahan ako. i know kasi na it's gonna be awkward pag nagkita kmi ulit. di naman kasi automatic samin n pag nagkita kmi we'll give each other a hug tpos mega usap na like "uy! i missed you!" kami ung tipong "hi.." tpos kanya-kanyang conversation na with friends. besides malabo na mapag-usapan namin ung issues between us dun sa party. una dahil inuman un. duh!? cyempre gud time lahat! pwera lng pag may nalasing!=D tpos cyempre dun cya sa tropa nya. tagal n nila di nagkakita-kita so cyempre they have some catching up to do. quality time with friends kung baga. and i don't wanna steal that time from him. kaya lng, what's sad bout that is pag andun n cya sa mga friends nya, wala ng matitirang time for me.. pero cge, ok n din... sanay na naman ako eh.. o cge na, windang nko ulit eh. whehehe