when i hear music and see green i think of him...

narealize ko na i keep on falling for guys who doesn't or can't love me in return. ewan ko ba kung bakit parang magnet ako ng mga ganung type of guys. do i have a bad sense of judgment or nagkakataon lng talaga un? i am a living example of the saying "always the bridesmaid never the bride". you may laugh at what im writing here but its true. im the person that you'll consider a great friend; so easy to get along with, so easy to like, so easy to love---as a friend and that it. un ako. ewan ko nga kung bakit sabi nila madali naman ako mahalin at makasama pero hanggang ngayon im still somewhat "in search" of the right guy. are they afraid to try, or am i just not the loving kind? and sad isipin diba? pero un ang bumabagabag sa isip for the longest time. im still glad that i have a lot of friends and that they love and appreciate me pero diba nga, at some point we get that feeling na something's missing. ang madalas na pagkakamali na nagagawa ko ay ma-fall sa isang kaibigan ko. ilang beses na nga bang nangyari sakin yun? mabilang ko pa kaya? is it wrong to fall for a friend or is it just me? ngayon-ngayon nga lng some of my girl barkadas teases me to my friend. baka daw magkaron ng something between us. hay nko, hinahayaan ko lng cla pakiligin ang mga sarili nila, then i just drop the idea. dyan kasi nagsstart ung mistakes ko na ma-fall sa isang friend. yah i know my friend is sweet and all that. but he's just really like that and close lang talaga kmi. he's one of my oldest friends and we've been like that for ages. although he's more concerned and "maaalalahanin" right now than before, that doesn't justify that there could be something bet. us. besides i know his life and what happens to him every single day. kaya ayan, i don't wanna start the idea that i could fall for him coz it's just gonna be another burden for me. im just happy that he's one of my great friends. hindi pko iniiwan nun. in fairness kahit my problem ako nakikinig siya sakin. and i thought noon pang gud times and kalokohan na friend lang cya. i was wrong. he's really a true friend and i hope ganun din ako sa kanya. as much as possible i wanna be as true and reliable for him. and the same for the rest of my friends. cguro ung isang nagbabasa nitong entry na toh ay alam mo kung cno ung tinutukoy ko. drop it. let's not talk about this issue on the phone ha?!?=D *wink* comedy masyado to talk about it. grabe,,, it would be nice to meet a guy like him that would take care of me. i could share endless stories about my friend and him being so sweet. hehe ang kulit kasi eh! di kumpleto day ko kung di ako makakareceive ng missed call from him. daily routine namin un eh.. hehe it makes me smile when i think about it. we literally see each other everyday. ewan ko ba, di pa ba kami nagkakasawaan ng muka?!?whehehe oh well, feel ko lng magkwento. sorry kung mahaba msyado entry ko. hehe